A response to somebody who made me feel scared...

A few days ago, I was scrolling through my facebook "On This Day" feature and a post from 2014 popped up. I read the first few lines and everything came flooding back. All of my fear, my feelings of helplessness came flooding back.

It's not public so allow me to share what it said:

I just got a super creepy voice mail from somebody with a NYC zip left on my phone. The person was saying the following as though it was a poem (lines made where they paused)...

out of my car
the car i thought i was driving
in the middle of nowhere
in the middle of night
in the middle of your body
the wrong turns i took
and ended up somewhere
in a place I never expected
in a place i could not recognize
the wrong turns that took me somewhere else
the sky there
the sea there
in the middle of your body
in the middle of nowhere
in the middle of night

When I texted "Who is this?" to the number, I received an automated reply that read, "Thanks for the message. Configure your number's SMS URL to change this message. Reply HELP for help. Reply STOP to unsubscribe. Msg and Data rates may apply." I replied, "STOP" and received this message, "You have successfully been unsubscribed. You will not receive any more messages from this number. Reply START to resubscribe." So then I called the number and received a clearly automated voice asking me to reconfigure my SMS URL.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm wtf?

At the time, I remember feeling so helpless, so scared. It felt like a threat. Whoever this human was, they felt entitled to read me anonymous words that talked about violating my body. This coward didn't even have the balls to identify themselves. Maybe they didn't know me? Maybe it was a random call? I googled the words to see if they were references; there were no helpful results in 2014 and none in 2018.

In 2014, several friends suggested it was a pre-recorded poem sent as a "goof" but there was nothing humorous about it.

I still don't know who sent it.

To be honest with you, I don't know why it's important for me to share this to my writing blog. Perhaps the notion that somebody used poetry to terrorize me. That's so fucked up.

Be ethical with your words and actions.