Showing posts with label blogger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label blogger. Show all posts

Thursday, September 2, 2021

Blog Retirement

We made it past the decade mark, and I've decided to retire the blog. I won't delete it- I can't bring myself to delete something I've dedicated myself to for such a significant chunk of time, but I won't be updating here anymore.

I'm still writing, though! Check me out at...

Support me at Ko-Fi

Updates at Twitter

Actual poetry read to you and for you at TikTok

Buy my chapbook and audible at Amazon



It's time to crack out of the cocoon and flutter on to different skies and flowers. Thank you all for sticking with me for so long. It's been quite a journey.

See you space cowboy,

Kit

Thursday, May 27, 2021

A few months later...

Updates & rambling...

Do you all know that I have ADHD? This is not a joking ha ha ha flippant comment. I have it!

So at this point I'm sure it comes as no surprise that I haven't updated in a few months. I could lie to you and tell you it's because of all the projects I've been working on, but honestly? It's not. In fact, when I'm busy with writing projects, it normally triggers me to write in here. The truth is, this is just me, and a me that suffers from pretty hard depression in the Spring. 

Reading goalsssssssssss

My goals this year are pretty minimal- I think I've got a 2 books-a-month reading goal? I've kept up with it, more or less. Last month I was hyper focused and knocked both of my books out in a week. This month I got cocky and didn't start reading/listening to my audiobooks until far too late in the month. I also chose pretty hefty bois to read. (Oh hey, let's be friends on StoryGraph?)

Checked off my to-read list since Jan:

  • The Water Dancer by Ta-Nehisi Coats
  • Children of Virtue & Vengeance by Tomi Adeyemi
  • Lumberjanes: The Moon is Up by Mariko Tamaki (I <3 YA and I'll fight you)
  • How Long 'til Black Future Month? N.K. Jemisin
  • How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi
  • Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones
  • The Craft of Love by EE Ottoman
  • The House in the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune

Currently working on:

  • The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon
  • The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern
To write, we must read! So I'm trying to keep my brain meat sharp (ow).

And now... to talk about creating!

As far as writing goes... well... it's on and off. The pandemic has definitely made it worse, that's for sure. I wrote a collection of poems last August and have tried putting a manuscript together for it 3 times, 2 of which have been lost to laptops that gave up before me. The third I am actively and presently working on. Since I've decided to stop publishing through Amazon, I'm trying to find a new self publisher. Searching for self-publishing companies almost always sends me on a former English major spiral of 1) imposter syndrome, BIG TIME 2) snobbery regarding self publishing (which I pretty much exclusively do, so wtf brain) and 3) General Anxiety & Overwhelmednessery.

I'm not sure I'll ever let my current novels see the light of day. There are some problematic corners I've written myself into and also? I can't reiterate enough how re-reading the novel I wrote post-concussion is like pulling teeth. Like ok. Brain injury and still tryna get them words on the page. I might just scratch them and start over fresh this year. But should I scratch a three book project because I don't like 1.5 of the books? Is this more imposter syndrome? Hello, this is just a brief glimpse into the deep well of overthinking I've done about these books over the past 5 years. I do think I still want to pursue a real publisher this year? But also maybe not. I don't fucking know. I am in book limbo. 

I also can't shake the feeling that I'm a much better poet than prose writer. I also learned that there are a whole bunch of people who think in like pictures? Like their thoughts while they're writing are like they're in a movie of everything happening, and I mostly think in words and I wonder if that stunts my ability to write prose? IDK. 

I knit A LOT of hats this winter, crocheted Ugly Blanket Jr. for my brother, made some tie dye stuff with my partner, started and ditched so many projects I can't keep track of them all. We added several giant containers to our veggie garden and the flowers came in like a goddamn beautiful, messy English garden (look!)

  

 


So I guess I don't really know what my writing goals are for this year (and we're 5 months in, yikes!) but I am trying really hard to get this second book of poetry out. It might end up going through Amazon again, just because it seems like they're the best for self publishing rn and the body of my poetry has already been through them. I just hate the idea of Jeff Bezos profiting off of my money- to be fair, the amount I sell books of poetry is just so miniscule. I'm pretty sure he makes more money in the time it takes to sneeze. Honestly, at my normal people job, I think I probably make more money in the time it takes to sneeze than I have off of self publishing. So meh? Does it matter? IDK, that's a thought for overthinking Kit to ponder later, then again, and possibly a third time, definitely a few times in a row while trying to sleep.

Our writing group seems to be hibernating. I hope it can find some life again soon. It ebbs and flows and I'm okay with that... I do too. 

Listening...

So I listen off and on to the podcast Start with This. SwT is accessible and frequently very motivating. Joseph & Jeffrey have a pretty good banter vibe and the writing prompts are helpful. I like how they structure it all, too. Do I do the prompts every time? Absolutely not, that's a level of consistency I would need to be medicated to achieve. Just keeping it real, y'all.

I've tried several other podcasts, but it seems like most of the writing podcasts I've found are too academic to keep my interest. Don't get me wrong, I was a baby academic in the throes of snobbery back in college, but that cost me a lot of money and put me in over a decades worth of debt that I could barely juggle and survive (and wouldn't have, if not for the love and help of friends and family). I'm not paying somebody to bore me death again. Fool me once, shame and debt on me, Fool me twice, well fuck, I just can't afford it. 

But if anybody is reading this and they have some good suggestions, I'd love to give them a try. 

So I guess that's a pretty good general update/ramblebramble. I hope everybody is having a fabulous week and I'll write at y'all again soon. Promise!


Love and rainy days,

Kit


As always, if you like (love) this content and want to support my writing outside of the big bad projects, and read supporter-only content, you can buy me a cuppa at ko.fi. You can also purchase my chapbook & audible of poetry, a record of night at Amazon. If you're so inclined, you can also follow my author page at goodreads or follow me on Twitter

Please show me some love and leave a comment, review, or rating on any of these platforms! Have an awesome day, my friends.

Monday, February 8, 2021

2021 Book Goals

Every good writer must also read. Somebody somewhere said something like that, I'm sure. 

So this year I want to be intentional about hitting the books! It's been a long time since college, so I get to chose the shit I want. So I'm going to try to knock out 24 books this year. That's 2 books per month. They can also be graphic novels, because I do heart me a good graphic novel. Big props to all my friend recs! Maybe I'll try to whip out some reviews to share.


My list (Probably not read in sequential order):

  1. The Water Dancer, by Ta-Nehisi Coates
  2. Children of Virtue & Vengeance by Tomi Adeyemi 
  3. The Unicorn & The Lady
  4. Gender Failure by Ivan E. Coyote
  5. The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenster
  6. Remote Control by Nnedi Okorafor
  7. The Kraken Lord and the Eater of the Sun by E.E. Ottoman
  8. How Long 'til Black Future Month by N.K. Jemisin
  9. How to be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi
  10. The Priory of the Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon
  11. This is How you Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar
  12. Map to the Sun by Sloane Leong
  13. Naked in Death J.D. Robb
  14. Harrow the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir
  15. How to Talk to a Goddess by Emily Croy Barker
  16. The Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon
  17. The City We Became by N.K. Jemison
  18. The untitled second novel of Legendborn by Tracy Deonn (coming out 2021)
  19. A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J. Maas
  20. Aetherbound by E.K. Johnston
  21. The Craft of Love by E.E. Ottoman
  22. My Sister, the Serial Killer by Oyinkan Braithwaite
  23. Klara and the Sun by Kazuo Ishiguro 
  24. Last Call: A True Story of Love, Lust, and Murder in Queer New York by Elon Green
Also, internet friends, I am no longer active on GoodReads (although this blog auto populates there). You can find me over at the Story Graph. My username is kit_steitz. There are no author pages, just reader pages, and that's cool too!

I love it when y'all throw some bones my way, and normally I would be pimping my work at the end of this blog, but this month I want ya'll (white folks like me) to go buy a book by a Black poet or prose writer (do it every month! But if you need a starting point, choose now). If you haven't read Rita Dove, audre lorde, Nnedi Okorafor, Tracy Deonn, Tomi Adeyemi, or the actual depth and wealth of Black authors that make up the fabric of our literary works past and present, then you need to catch up. You are missing out on whole universes of actual magic. 

Much love and luck on your book goals this year, my dear readers!

Love,
Kit

Monday, February 1, 2021

Imbolc blessings

Happy Monday, 

blessed Imbolc, 

and a powerful Black History Month, dear readers!

Imbolc is Brigid's sabbat. It's when we heathens of a particular flavor celebrate poetry, rebirth, the sun's return, fertility, inspiration, fire & light, music, and smithery. I've blogged about my love of Imbolc in the past, because it's always a powerful way to pull me out of the post-Yule doldrums, and there are few things I love more than cold, bonfires, and poetry.

Even if you don't celebrate Imbolc, I invite you to take a few quiet moments to reflect on some new or beloved poetry. I recommend you check out the Poetry Foundations' article on Lucille Clifton

cutting greens
by Lucille Clifton

curling them around
i hold their bodies in obscene embrace
thinking of everything but kinship.
collards and kale
strain against each strange other
away from my kissmaking hand and
the iron bedpot.
the pot is black,
the cutting board is black,
|my hand,
and just for a minute
the greens roll black under the knife,
and the kitchen twists dark on its spine
and I taste in my natural appetite
the bond of live things everywhere.

I believe it would be a mistake to end the post here. It's important to say the words out loud, especially on a day to honor and revere poets and Black Americans (all month, all year). Poetry is not white. It's not straight. It's not cisgender. We must read, hear, see black voices every day. Our country is sick with White Supremacy and we can't heal together if we don't hear now. Black Americans are dying every day from systematic racism; in the justice system, at the hands of police, and even in healthcare. Just this week an article was posted that a Black man, father & husband, David Bell, died in the Barnes-Jewish hospital parking lot after being refused care (the third time). Not to mention the outrageous mortality rate for Black mothers and babies in our hospital systems (an issue that tennis GOAT all time champ of all things, Serena Williams has talked about at length after the birth of her daughter)

Those of us white poets must step up to stand behind Black (and BIPOC) folks because there is no other time. Now is the time. Now will always be the time.

20 Black Poets You Should Know & Love.

Read, but also think about how you can help in your daily life.

Today, I'd like to recall the last lines of Amanda Gormon's inaugural poem, "The Hill We Climb":

When day comes we step out of the shade,
aflame and unafraid
The new dawn blooms as we free it
For there is always light,
if only we’re brave enough to see it
If only we’re brave enough to be it

Black voices are powerful, beautiful, and important. They are the light. Black poets paved a highway through our collective histories with tales of humanity, queerness, womanhood, Blackness, gender, family...  We owe an incalculable debt to our Black poets, past and present, for saying the hard, the joyous, the invisible things that many of us white people want to ignore (except during Black History Month). 

Normally I would end my blog post with a little blip about supporting my writing through ko-fi or what have you. Today, I want you to go support a Black voice. Read a poem by a Black poet to your child or your partner or your bestfriend. Listen, hear, be vulnerable and uncomfortable, learn, heal, elevate. Go on, go read some Audre Lorde or Rita Dove.

Love,

Kit


Monday, January 25, 2021

Writing & ADHD

 It's Monday. It's raining. It's chilly. If you're anything like me, your brain is swirling with all the things you want to get done this week, and your coffee has been empty for hours. Honestly, it's offensive. I need my bean juice to last longer, y'all. 

I wracked my brain over what I would write about today. I have brainstorming lists to choose from, but I wasn't feeling any of the topics. I went for a lunch walk, listened to TAKÉNOBU, and searched my soul for what was really going on, and it occurred to me, I haven't written at length about what it's like to write with ADHD.

Hello, I'm Kit, and I have ADHD. I write words (and draw, skate, hula-hoop, knit, crochet, paint, craft, etc., etc.) There are a LOT of creatives in the ADHD community but most of us will tell you we have the struggles. 

Writing schedules? Uhhhhhhhhh

Finishing Projects? Ummmmmm. 

Goal setting for projects? Sure, let's do that! And at the end of the year, I'll have tossed them aside and down 4 other things.

It's rough, y'all. Especially when so many successful writers go on about 5 THINGS YOU NEED TO BE A GOOD WRITER and they're literally all tips on how to be neurotypical. 

So how do you manage your writing, when you're ADHD, and you ran out of hyperfocus gas? This isn't rhetorical, if you have some brain hacks you want to share I WANT TO HEAR THEM. 

These are ways that I currently tackle it:

  1. Forgiving myself and being kind when I don't live up to my own expectations. It's so easy to fall down the feelings pit when I stumble in my craft. I'm all over the place with projects & ideas and most of them don't stick. That doesn't make me a bad person, a bad writer, but it does mean I have to be radically kind to my little inner critic. Sometimes I'll list projects I have finished and thrust into the world, or I'll review the list, to remind myself that I am capable of completing projects and that they're pretty darn good. 

  2. I created this very blog to help motivate myself to consistency, to inspire myself, and to keep myself writing. I had grand plans, of course, when I started it. I've given myself so many different writing schedules for this blog. Right now, I'm trying to write once a week (Mondays, what whaaat!) I go through periods where I write my thoughts on the craft, where I write actual poetry or prose and share it, but I try to keep it flexible. I use my blog to ground me, and sometimes it works. Sometimes I forget about it and get lost in writer's block. When that happens, I have to go back to #1.

  3. I've recently started listening to the Start With This podcast and tackling the 2 assignments per episode (1 to consume, 1 to create). Podcasts about writing have been a good way to kick my brain into plotting & scheming. If you have some good writing podcast suggestions I would LOVE to hear them!

  4. Permission to fail. Permission to succeed. Permission to look at fear of failure and fear of success in the eye and stare them down. Permission to look them in the eyes and have a little cry & a nap, as long as I dust myself off and get back up afterwards.
Well, my lunch break is almost over, so I better wrap this up! I hope y'all enjoyed reading and if you also struggle with writing & ADHD, I hope this helped or helped you feel less alone (and please, please, please share them tips 'n tricks, y'all!!)


As always, if you like (love) this content and want to support my writing outside of the big bad projects, and read supporter-only content, you can buy me a cuppa at ko.fi. You can also purchase my chapbook & audible of poetry, a record of night at Amazon. If you're so inclined, you can also follow my author page at goodreads or follow me on Twitter

Please show me some love and leave a comment, review, or rating on any of these platforms! Have an awesome day, my friends.


Friday, October 16, 2020

Pantster NaNo prep in 5 Easy Steps

 In the NaNoWriMo world, you have pantster and preppers, and those of us in between. 

You planner planny plan-type methodical folks have plenty of guides out there to the Perfect (TM) way to prep, so I'm not going to help y'all. You've probably already spent September reading blogs, watching youtube videos, or IDK snapchats? about it. You've got this under control.

This is a blog the messy rest of us.

Hello pantsters and plansters, thanks for reading. This won't be a prescriptive guide because if you're here, we both know that doesn't work for you already. If you're like me, I could create a million outlines and storyboards and still veer off course in a matter of 20 words, because for a lot of us, it's not just about the story, it's about how we engage with the story. When I started NaNo over a decade ago, I tried everything I could think of. My first novel was 100000% by the seat of my pants (and awful and hopefully lost forever). After that, I tried all the different ways. If we're being honest with ourselves, this is an incredibly difficult task and if we get bogged down in the how, we forget the do. So October is crucial, this prep is crucial, but ultimately keeping your ass in seat and writing is the only thing that matters.

Thing 1: Identify what interests you and how you stay interested

Your first step to figuring out how to be effective here is to figure out what gets your juices going (and what keeps them going). This is the most important step. If you're like me, you'll spend October meticulously planning your novel (gets me going), and then as you jump into November, you'll get bored and start changing it right and left (brings me joy). Add a dragon here, an immaculate conception there, maybe some torture? Really bored? Kill somebody. So planning helps me get excited, but being flexible and adaptable while I'm writing keeps me going. Maybe for you, it's the world building? Or the character creation? Do you like to doodle your characters to get ideas? Do it.

Ultimately, no two writers are the same. What works for me may not work for you, but I hope this guide can help you start brainstorming ideas and thinking about what works for you.

Thing 2: Get to know your characters

Do outlines kill you, deep inside? Does knowing where your story will take you bore you down to your bones? Then don't fucking do it. Take this prep time to figure out your characters and the world they'll be in. That way, when you sit down on Nov 1st, you already have a relationship with them and you know how they'll behave and what you'd like them to do. 

I do this in a lot of ways:

  • Create character sheets (like in D&D)
  • Create Pinterest boards of celebrities that look like my characters, of places that remind me of where I'd like them to live or for some of the plot to happen
  • Create a playlist that makes you think of the characters or gets you in the mood
  • Write a few short stories that are centered on your characters (or in the world) to get a feel for it all and really shift gears into this new and wonderful place.
  • Talk it out with your writerly friends. Sometimes you just need to ramble about your ideas (it's called rubber ducking) and be sure to let your friend ramble their ideas too! 
  • Something I haven't listed- get creative! This is about finding out who you're writing about! This list isn't exhaustive.
  • Don't forget your villains. Villains are fun and deserve to be fleshed out, as it were.
Thing 3: Get to know your world

You don't have to know exactly what it looks like but it helps to have an idea before you jump into this. Here's a list of ways I've done it or plan to try it:
  • Pinterest that shit, look up pictures of places all around the world and save it to your pinterest vision board
  • Create a visitor's guide and include the info you think it's important for folks to know.
  • Draw a crude map. My first world map was on a napkin. This does not need to be elaborate.
  • Sometimes I like to doodle unusual flora and fauna that might be in my worlds.

Ultimately, you'll probably want to think of the core nugget of the plot.

Thing 4: CONFLICT

You don't have to outline the main story, but you should have some idea as to what your main conflict looks like. Write it out, draw it out, sing it out. Just work through it and keep a note of it somewhere to glance at- it can be one sentence, "Jameela's mother died under mysterious circumstances and she wants to find out what really happened" or perhaps "Randal needs to visit his ailing cousin but there is a Giant Fucking Serpant in the way" are examples that are perfectly suitable. 

"Jane doesn't like ham" might even work, IDK your life. Write what makes you happy.

Just figure out what the central conflict is and keep track of it.

Thing 5: Keep track of your shit

This is a two parter- 

  1. Store all of your files together. I use google drive, but you do what you want. You will probably have to access some of your character or world work as you go, so it's good to have it somewhere you can pull up quickly.

  2. Start & keep an ongoing file of character names, appearance, and relationships. For example:
    Durga, sister, tall brown hair blue eyes thick likes apples
    Shiela, lover, short, thin, green eyes red hair, slight

    I also include like quick world notes here too, and slang I make up along the way. Anything you might forget and need a quick ref for.

    This way allows you a quick reference while you're writing, so if you create a totally random character out of the blue, one you hadn't planned, you can pull them up 50 pages later and have the details correct. This is really important time saver for pantsters and plansters, because when we deviate, we can record it and refer back to it without needing to retcon anything or spend precious writing time tracking it down in the rough draft.

Good luck, writers! Have fun and curse the gods!

And don't forget- if you like this content and want to support my writing and read supporter-only content, you can buy me a cuppa at ko.fi. You can also purchase my chapbook of poetry a record of night at Amazon. If you're so inclined, you can also follow my author page at goodreads.









Thursday, October 15, 2020

What I'm reading in 2020...

I absolutely adore spooky season. The holiday season is the magic that gets me through the year and it all starts with a little boo and a lot of ancestors. Please do not forget the Reeses pumpkins, because I have not.

On this perfect, cloudy Fall day, I was going through and updating my Goodreads account and realized I've read some fan-fucking-tastic books this year. Thinking about all these books again, I found myself wanting to talk more about them-
 so straight from my bookshelves to your eyes, here are my top 5 reads (so far) of 2020:
  1. Children of Blood & Bone by Tomi Adeyemi
    This book is brilliant on every level. Just read it. Stop reading reviews about it, go to the library or your local bookstore, buy it, and settle in for the night. You need this book in your life. Fantasy, magic, rebellion, pathos, love, betrayal, family... It is the best and most perfect book ever written. I am biased because I could not tear myself away. All of the books in this list were AMAZING, but this is possibly the best book I've read since I can remember. 
  2. Legendborn by Tracy Deonn
    This YA book is completely, utterly engrossing. If you like urban fantasy and a mash-up of The Order and Arthurian mythology mixed with a healthy dose of American history, this novel was written for you. Deonn explores what it means to be a young, Black girl in White fantasy; what it's like to be written out of the stories and how to the protagonist, Bree, fights to find her own story forward and back in time. Y'all, her story is so powerful and mighty, I can't even. Shout out for the LGBTQ representation, too! As non binary folk, it was nice to read another they/them. It was nice to read queer couples casually a part of the fabric of this rich, complex story. 
  3. The Binti Trilogy by Nnedi Okorafor
    I utterly savored the Binti trilogy. This novel is set in a alt future Africa and follows a Himba girl, named Binti on her journey to the Oomza Uni, the best university in the galaxy. I literally can't tell you any of the juicy adventures without giving away big plot points, but I can tell you that Binti is so incredible (the book and the human). Her journey is complex, and messy, and despite the living space ships and math-magic, utterly real. This is a beautiful and delicious read.
  4. The Deep by Rivers Solomon with Daveed Diggs, William Hutson, Jonathan Snipes
    I'm not sure I have the words for this book. Look, it's amazing. It explores the culture of Black mermaids who are descendant from pregnant slave women thrown overboard Slaver ships. It explores memory & trauma & collective & self. It's a song and a story, a struggle and life. While it's a short read, I found myself pausing often, to go back and re-read, to think, to feel what was happening. Just thinking about this story makes me want to cry and hold it close to my chest. Read this book. 
  5. Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir
    Y'all, look, when my partner texted me about this book, they said simply "GAY NECROMANCER IN SPACE" so obviously we went and bought two copies. It's the first in a series (the second one just came out last month), and it does deliver on the gay, space necromancy. Tamsyn has created a complex world and a protagonist (Gideon) that galivants about with brazen ferocity. I have one, huge, giant, major complaint but it is a MASSIVE spoiler, so if you've read it and want to dish with me, hmu. Up until the last action sequence, I rate it 10/10, but it drops down to a 5/10 after that. Worth the read, and nice to have a queer lead, but gird yourself for the end. My hopes are that it will redeem itself in the next book. 
That's it, my fine readers. What are you reading right now? 

And don't forget- if you like this content and want to support my writing and read supporter-only content, you can buy me a cuppa at ko.fi. You can also purchase my chapbook of poetry a record of night at Amazon. If you're so inclined, you can also follow my author page at goodreads.


Monday, August 3, 2020

Holy Cannoli & ko-fi problems (boooo)

Okay before the big awesome news, let's do the Ko-Fi update. Get it out of the way.

Ko-Fi updates (boooooo)

So the other news is that Ko-Fi submits my donations in a manner that requires me to have a specific set-up in Paypal. It would have been nice to know this ahead of time, but unfortunately I didn't find out until my first donation. I'm working with my bank and paypal to get it all figured out and hopefully it will all be squared away by Wednesday.

So those who donate during this time have a couple options:
  • They can wait until Wednesday to read the posted August poems 
    or 
  • they can contact me via email foonalina at gmail dot com and I will send them their very own copies! 
  • All who donate during this time will receive a little something extra extra for their patience! 


And now for the good news...

The paperback of a record of night is NOW AVAILABLE!!!! 

If you want to read my tiny chapbook in physical form, go get you a copy!

I mean, just look at this! It's so legit, y'all.




That's it for now, friends! 

-Kit